"Meet me at Starbucks at 3:15. Wear light yoga clothes. You'll be home by 6:00."
What????
Ok number 1.... let's just start with how much of an angel she is. My email was so dark and dismal. Anyone could have read it and said, "Suck it up Babs, you're being ridiculous." She didn't do that. Someone who was nice might say, "It's going to be ok, do x, y, and z." But Seetha? Nope. She sacrificed her entire Saturday afternoon to help me. She's hands down one of the most amazingly generous people I've ever met.
So what were we going to do?? I had a lot of ideas. 1) She was going to take me to an eating disorder clinic and show me I am not as screwed up as I think I am. 2) She was going to come over, clean out my cupboards, write a meal plan with me, and take me to Wegmans to make sure I only bought healthy foods. 3) She would take to to a Hindu Temple to meditate.
I was so wrong! Seetha took me to my first Bikram Yoga class. If you're not familiar with Bikram (I wasn't), it is a 90 minute class, 26 poses, and it's as hot as hell (anywhere from 105 to 115 degrees to be exact). She said she didn't want to tell me because she was afraid I would back out, haha. But I was excited to try it - she chose this because it's about the only thing I can do with my knee this week. Ok now prepare to be amazed with her care. She had contacted the place earlier - they had a mat, towels, and water all set up for me. She put her mat right in front of mine so I could copy her. And she had a second instructor do the entire practice next to me so that he could help me with any/all modifications I might need for my knee. Incredible. I felt so cared for. So lucky. See how amazing she is?
Then we went to Starbucks and talked for almost 2 hours. I wasn't home by 6:00... It was more like 7:45pm. She's so easy to talk to. :-) She helped me understand what was bothering me - apparently a night of indulgence can be caused by an internal trigger, but to go down a spiral for several weeks is the result of an outside trigger. My outside trigger right now? The biggest one is not getting to go home and be with my parents for Christmas. I can't express how sad and guilty this makes me feel - I'm trying to be positive and understanding, but it's a big deal to me, and it's hard. Stack onto that the uncertainty of my knee, the uncertainty of both mine and Andy's jobs, the stress of a wedding (mostly dress shopping)... oh and also it's the holidays, so there's tons of trigger foods available everywhere.
Now what? Well let me tell you, there's no way in the World I'm going to not follow her advice after she so generously donated her entire Saturday afternoon to me. I'm going to:
- Meditate twice a day
- Do Bikram Yoga 4 times this week
- Juice Reset of Sunday
- Back to no starch on Monday
- Meet with her on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday (she wants to see me frequently and regularly - she says I just need support right now... and she's right).
After I finished up with Seetha, I took a quick much-needed shower, and then headed out to meet Sarah to celebrate Vinny's birthday. :-) It was so good to see her!! I've missed my Sarah time!
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| Birthday Boy Vinny! |
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| Beautiful Sarah :-) |
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| Babs and Sarah - together at last! |
That wraps up Saturday. It was a late night and I was pretty darn drained by the time I fell in bed. But I fell in bed feeling immensely nurtured, cared for, and dare I say... hopeful... for the first time in awhile.
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