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I'm going to keep this on the short side because it's not going to be very positive - sorry. Thursday ended in a food fail. Friday - repeat. Saturday I was doing great, but then dinner at Will and Rose's turned into the all-too-typical friend/food fest. And so today (Sunday), I am depressed. One time a long time ago I was watching "Say Yes to the Dress." This girl came in for her fitting and she had gained weight since she bought her dress. I was horrified. How could anyone ever gain weight leading up to their wedding???? Oh wait. Now I know how you can. It's all I seem to be able to do lately.

I'm sure you all have figured this out by now, but I'm totally obsessed with the number on the scale. After listening to Robert Lustig's audiobook "Fat Chance," I'm also pretty convinced I'm addicted to food, mainly sugar. I don't know what to do anymore. No starch? Follow Seetha? It worked for so long but now seems to fail (quickly) every time I try. Should I try Beachbody? Anna's been doing it and is so motivated and doing an awesome job. I want to do it too! But then I get nervous because it involves measuring food, a SERIOUS habit I worked hard to break… so do I really want to go back to that?? No, not at all. But I'm desperate. I even called REDO - Rochester Eating Disorder Organization - to try to join a support group. It's full, no room for new people. I guess I should feel glad that I'm not alone… but come on! I'm lost. I'm exhausted by this all. I just want to crawl in a hole and sleep. 

Actually… I think I will take a nap.

I'll leave you with some pictures. I did a workout video with Anna - 30 minutes of legs and 10 minutes of Abs. It was really fun to do together. My legs haven't been this sore since I ran the marathon. I'm dying today!!

Coach Anna with Cheerleader Poco!

Another thing that's not helping my mood is the snow storm that hit last night. Here's what we woke up to today. It's March 30th. No buds on the trees. 6 inches of new snow today. I am so fed up with this winter. It's been absolutely ridiculous.

GO AWAY WINTER

K - nap time. SUPER busy week next week. Ugh. I need a break.