This week (Monday) started with a training session with Vinny and Sarah. I wish I could afford to do it twice a week because it is such a good workout, but oh well. Instead of going straight to work after training, I headed out to the west side to spread the word about a free concert Job #1 is doing next month.
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| Flyer in the door handle |
I papered a handful of neighborhoods, totaling 92 houses. It took forever and wasn't nearly as fun as I thought it would be... more like the world's worst trick or treating. I spent the rest of the day at the office and then the evening at home. Monday was my first night of eating nothing but dinner after 4:00pm. It was hard.
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| Salad, green beans, chicken patty, and pudding |
You'll notice the pudding... even if I couldn't have dessert before bed, I wanted to make sure I still had something sweet!
Tuesday was long (as usual). I did a little yoga in the morning at home, worked Job #1, then Job #2. By the time I got home I was hungry, but I had already had dinner so I wasn't supposed to eat anymore. I made some tea and listened to one of my guided meditations. No dice. I couldn't take it. I made myself some egg whites and then had three dried apricots. That was the first time I failed to follow Seetha's guidelines since I first started following her instructions on September 1st. I was pretty disappointed in myself, but I did feel better after eating something.
And now it is Wednesday. I'm absolutely exhausted even though I got my normal amount of sleep (although I did have bad dreams and at one point woke up in the middle of the night with "dead arm" so that was annoying). Then I went to the bathroom and weighed myself - up 0.6 pounds. Now Seetha told me not to worry about it unless I was up a pound or more, so I recognize that I should not worry.... I also recognize that I've had a lot of "intestinal distress" these last couple of days with no "results" (if you know what I mean), so logically I can work out that I am not fatter because I ate egg whites and dried apricots before bed. But... I'm still frustrated. And tired. Not a good combination.
I'll admit that I just went across the street to get a bottle of water and while I was in the store I picked up a bag of nuts, seeds, and raisins. A fine choice as long as I wouldn't eat the whole bag... which I knew I would. Thankfully when I went to check out I saw they had small packets of peanut butter. I put the trail mix bag away and picked up a peanut butter packet instead. Then came back to the office, sliced up an apple, squirted half of the peanut butter out of the packet (about a tablespoon) and immediately threw the rest of the packet away. Did I need a snack at all? No. But I am proud that I stopped the bad decision I was about to make and made a better one instead. I've gone 24 days without bingeing. I'm so proud of that, and I know I will be even prouder to say I have gone an entire month! I'm so close... I just need to be persistent. Plus if I binge now, I'll feel like crap about myself, and with wedding dress shopping on Saturday that's the last thing I need.
I'm going to email Seetha right now. She and I have been texting. She is so supportive. I am so happy to have found her. :-)
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